Spoiler: It isn't love...for both of us. I made the mistake of fallin' for someone I never meant to fall for, and she didn't want it to get that deep. This track illustrates (via metaphor) the internal struggle I'm going through while I fight to keep her around.
Meanwhile, she's drifting...visibly.
lyrics
Verse 1
Counterpoint to my waves, in these days
gravity pullin' me ways, the opposites gon' crash
uh, when we get combustion, this blaze, embrace
collateral damages, been famished off yo ass
uh, man she got me starvin' for affection, erections of an adolescent
line it up, they droppin' fast
as, I stare down this runway last Sunday dreamin'
of a different galaxy, yo balance beam on top of me and
this separate class that we in, swimming class don't laugh at me
I'm breaststrokin' after 3am, feelin' like an Atlantean
her body wet, and I been vetted, flawless veracity 'n
nobody know me but you, how the hell I think 'bout leavin' you
gave me a couple of reasons to, can't deal with pressure
not gon' buy you out for these chickens, you ain't Kobe's Vanessa
panty hose on the dresser, watch you get naked all day if I could
when I die bet all of my neighbors gon' say I was good
to her, I done gave you all the affection in me, three times broken,
tryna be yo teammate love you, you'd never be my opponent
break up then we disown it, then regret and leave the moment
called my momma cryin', broke down, said put some Jesus on it
ain't prayed in months...reminiscin' on all them hearts,
several slayed at once...and I pulled amazing stunts
act as if, you always had yo hands chained, I had the whip
she gon' turn yo rock hard to powder, been out here baggin' bricks
she got magic tricks
Hook
Yo I been cut up
hit me wit' that real I had to tell my feelings shut up
now these girls is wavin' at me, I just holla what up
they can't get too close, swear to God that shit because of
you (4x)
What the hell am I gon' do (2x)
Waves
Verse 2
Goin' outta my mind tho
gave me life when we first met
why the hell am I dyin' tho
snuck up on me no warnin' shots
swear to God my third eye been closed
shoulda felt all them bad vibes
a hundred seventeen nights ago
I let you get
too close, she sayin'
"why'd I let you hit"...
huh, we the two most
confusin' lovers I done met
but that story flip when she tell it mayne
thinkin' back to my worst pain, n this felt the same
we open, can't breathe lately, that suffocation inside
she controllin' my life, from the passenger in my ride, uh
gas pedals ain't lettin' up, you can see the fear in my eyes, uh
headed straight for that beachfront, I ain't tryna die in no tide
hold up, whenever my lady roll up
got the room on lockdown, in that box drownin'
nobody colder, this girl belong in MOMA
flawless piece,
bakin' soda, she done made my heart release...
tryna control my temper, pulled my card at least
a few times daily, they all say you fine baby
but I know, that I dodged a bullet just like True Crime lately
I'm feelin', lost, focusin' on my flaws
images in my brain, like that purple trim on yo draws
flip the script, I know she know it
cancerous, chemo it
bringin' out all my dark dreams, no outlet for this poet
I'm trippin' hard...
can we sail out?
locked up wit' no bail out?
I don't wanna leave...
but that water risin', I can't breathe
somebody help
I'm by myself
credits
from FreeFall (Album),
released October 29, 2015
Written & Performed by Cam James
Produced by Remot
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